| Thank you God for never giving up on me. I've heard you calling my name my whole life. I remember all the times you got my attention only for me to wonder off again. I really miss you. I'm not sure why we grew so far apart. One day I just stopped caring I guess. I've always remembered you. I'd always pray a little prayer to you right before dozing off to sleep. I haven't been as faithful to you as I should but that hasn't stopped you from blessing my life. I've made some bad decisions. I've had to pay the consequences of them. But you've always got me through it. I want to make you the center of my life again. I don't want our relationship to be just a second thought. I want to really live for you. Forgive me for my mistakes. Forgive me for my anger. Forgive me for watching pornography. Forgive me for lying, forgive me for not taking better care of myself. Forgive me for missing the mark. Wash me clean, pick me up and dust me off. I've dug a ditch and fallen in. I want out and I have found that I can not do it on my own. I want to get more involved in church like I used to be. I don't just want to show up once a week and then rush out at the end of service. I want to be a part of the church. I want to be involved. Give me a purpose. Surround me with support. Help me stay free from all my vices. Keep me busy with positive work. I want to contribute to the kingdom of heaven. Help me to be truthful and honest. Give me the ability to be sensitive to other peoples needs. Fill me with your holly spirit. Guild me, speak to me. Help me to do your Will. Let today be the day of something new. Plant a seed in me. Instill in my heart your love. Speak to my wife. Pull her closer to you. Help us to both grow together in our spiritual walk. Bless my daughter, keep her safe. Bring my family together. Untie us to all be in the same place. I dream of us one day all sitting together in church. Let my dream become a reality. Keep me on track Lord. I love you and praise you my everlasting Father. Thank you for caring. In Jesus name I pray, AMAN |